I am not my 34DD!

I am not my 34DD!

Alright, look over the years I’ve always gotten a lot of flak for my body, especially the fact that my BRA size is slightly bigger than the average 20year old. Back in the day I had so much to deal with because I was always labelled as the "only black girl" in the netball or hockey team...I was always the ‘bigger bra sized girl ’ in my age group. I love sport with all my heart hence I felt like this obstacle on my chest defined me... I felt I had to overcome my beasts then face being chosen in the team.

 

 I’m not for 1 second going to act like it never bothered me because it did big time...I hated my Bra size because I felt it drew a line between normality and abnormality. At school I was very athletic. I featured in about four different sports, did gymnastics but I had to stop because of unforeseen circumstances. I then started Netball and everything fell into place. High school I continued with Hockey and soccer. But I'd always look Khensi in the mirror and think eishhhhh "I hate my chest" 

 I felt my Breasts grew at a rate I myself couldn't control nor understand. I looked at my grandma, mother and then myself... The same genetic pattern of three different generations but the question was always "WHY ME?” I couldn't wear a top from the age of 16 without a Bra, which made matters worse. I always wanted to be a model but I felt my Bra size took it all away from me. Because the average model in the mag hardly has any breasts, I couldn't even get myself to understand why Pamela Anderson got a boob job because women I got it all but hated it!

I found my source refuge in sport. There isn't a sport I didn't go try out for. What I love about myself is that when I put my head to something I give it my all that's why I easily made the teams. My coaches saw beyond my Breasts and I'm grateful for that, they saw talent but I always put me down because of my Bra size! Netball, hockey, soccer, cheer leading, softball, gymnastics and athletics, I played and I enjoyed myself even met the most amazing people. I made friends but our different Bra sizes were always at the back of my mind eating at me.

 The biggest mistake I did to myself was comparing my beauty to those of others. But not anymore! Now I can easily walk into a store and look for my 34DD because there's none I can do about it. God gave me big breasts for a reason I might not understand now but I'm Humble and taking it a day at a time. Who cares if my chest is bigger?? I'm trying to embrace it all to the best of my ability. Funny but true my Bra size always worried me hence I never stopped playing sport... I just confused myself with emotions but acted in a positive manner. 

 So, to you my beautiful African young sisters You are more than your Bra Size, just like India Arie said "I am not my Hair" Khensi-Nova says "I am not my 34DD bra size" . We all have our own unique beauty. Our bodies are a work of art, own your body and feel that you own it because if you don't, no-one!