Big 21!

On the 4^th of April 2013, I turned BIG 21.

My peers are on their 2^nd children and more, however, I remember Gayton McKenzie saying “wouldn’t it be nice if Black girls broke the curse of “an apple doesn’t fall far from a tree”” by that he meant that if your grandmother had her first child at 18 and your mother fell in the same footsteps, why can’t you be different?? Those words gave me enough reason to stay a virgin and work on empowering myself. And I’m sure we all know Dj Sbu’s 7B’s “Books Before Boys, Because Boys Bring Babies”, I’d like to think that that’s self-explanatory.

Turning 21, for me was not only about not having a baby, 21 for me means celebrating my growth as a young woman celebrating my life’s challenges well or bad. I believe I’ve been through a lot, but most importantly I didn’t break. I’m grateful to all the relationships I built with my family, relatives and friends, it’s the bonds that I’ve built with these special people that kept me sane. To God, my source of refugee, my Big Daddy, thank you for everything, it’s only now that I understand and have made sense why I had to go through everything I’ve been through.

For my 21^st my mother said the most important words to me, “my child you are now in your second gear of life, your first was passing your matric, your second is turning 21 and being celebrated as a beautiful young lady, your third gear should be graduating and fourth getting job and lastly your fifth gear should be doing whatever your heart desires “that for me is just enough to empower myself and be the best that I can be. My 21^st key is a watch and a bracelet and my mom asked me to define the gift myself and I said to her “time waits for no man; I have to work hard in order for me to reach my fifth gear in the next years”. I put myself under pressure there however, it has to be done after all a goal or decision without a deadline is merely a discussion with no energy behind it. Thank you Mommy, I love you.

Andiswa Madikane my Big sister, friend and mentor, also got me the best and meaningful 21^st gift, a twin dairy. This is no grudge book keeper but a journal to write my goals and dreams my very own eye bags and dimples. Just because I don’t have Bonnie Henna’s book it doesn’t mean I cannot write my own “fake it, till you make it” but I’m not faking anything I’m just giving myself the same dose of inspiration as reading eye bags would’ve given me. Thanks Andiswa, Minnie you is making it step by step, I love you is that okay?

To everyone else who made my 21^st birthday the best, thanks a million, I really am a special loved Khensi. How did I do it? Self-love, wisdom and God’s word is my GPS, value my worth as a young woman, ask questions and its okay to have your dreams critised constructively in order for you to grow.

Thanks for reading my serving, go out there and shine like the diamond that you are and God bless my Desire family abundantly xoxo!

Varsity Vibes!

VARSITY VIBES

Sometime in March i entered a competition and we had to suggest name for the university student magezine. I suggested Varsity Vibes and it got short-listed and students had to vote on facebook... I got the most votes  and won!

It really feels awesome being the centre of attention on campus and people actually asking you "is that you on the student magezine" im super proud of myself.

I would like to thank Our Heavenly Father God for blessing me with a creative mind. Who could've thought that a simple name like VARSITY VIBES would come out on top? Not me of cause,hahahaha. 

To everyone who believed in my name and actually voted, I really appreciate it.

Diamonds

Diamond

"Diamonds"

Shine bright like a diamond

Shine bright like a diamond

Find light in the beautiful sea

I choose to be happy

You and I, you and I

We’re like diamonds in the sky

You’re a shooting star I see

A vision of ecstasy

When you hold me, I’m alive

We’re like diamonds in the sky

I knew that we’d become one right away

Oh, right away

At first sight I felt the energy of sun rays

I saw the life inside your eyes

So shine bright tonight, you and I

We’re beautiful like diamonds in the sky

Eye to eye, so alive

We’re beautiful like diamonds in the sky

Shine bright like a diamond

Shine bright like a diamond

Shine bright like a diamond

We’re beautiful like diamonds in the sky

Shine bright like a diamond

Shine bright like a diamond

Shine bright like a diamond

We’re beautiful like diamonds in the sky

Palms rise to the universe

As we moonshine and molly*

Feel the warmth, we’ll never die

We’re like diamonds in the sky

You’re a shooting star I see

A vision of ecstasy

When you hold me, I’m alive

We’re like diamonds in the sky

At first sight I felt the energy of sun rays

I saw the life inside your eyes

So shine bright tonight, you and I

We're beautiful like diamonds in the sky

Eye to eye, so alive

We're beautiful like diamonds in the sky

Shine bright like a diamond

Shine bright like a diamond

Shine bright like a diamond

We’re beautiful like diamonds in the sky

Shine bright like a diamond

Shine bright like a diamond

Shine bright like a diamond

We're beautiful like diamonds in the sky

Shine bright like a diamond

Shine bright like a diamond

Shine bright like a diamond

So shine bright tonight, you and I

We're beautiful like diamonds in the sky

Eye to eye, so alive

We're beautiful like diamonds in the sky

Shine bright like a diamond

Shine bright like a diamond

Shine bright like a diamond

Oh, yeah

Shine bright like a diamond

Shine bright like a diamond

Shine bright like a diamond

Shine bright like a diamond

My birthday song **,

Celebration...

"Celebration"(feat. Lil Wayne, Tyga, Chris Brown & Wiz Khalifa)

Get high, get high, get high, get high, get high
Westside, westside, westside, westside, westside

[Hook:]
We havin' a celebration, let us stay high
We havin' a celebration, let us stay high
We havin' a celebration, let us stay high
We havin' a celebration, let us stay high

[Game:]
Nigga blowing on that ayo, breakin' down them trees
I'm out the door with dro on the keys
Scooping up Chris and I'm hitting the freeway
Yeah, got a whole zip of that purp
Got a couple hoes home with no clothes on
Cause they roll on us, let's twerk
Now we hotboxin' that Ghost, Ace all in that do'
Ray Bans in my face, never know when my eyes low
Smoke good, fuck good, eat good, steakcap
She said backwoods, kill swishers, you eat take out
Yeah, but I love fucking them redbones
She country thick and that hair long, that pussy killer, she dead wrong
She went to Howard, her head strong, her mamma tall, So her legs long
She went to college and got her masters, now she bringing that bread home
Roll up

[Bridge:]
Put the purp in the blunt
Get high, get high, get high, get high, get high
Put the purp in the blunt
Westside, westside, westside, westside, westside

[Hook x2]

[Chris Brown:]
It's a celebration, all on the pole they doing the dance
Anticipating I'm feeling your body, hoping that you would just give me a chance
God damn babe, just hold your glass up for this toast
My ca$h up and yo ass up, and I'm the one tippin' the most
Tonight, on the westside
And if you wanna roll, have the best fuckin night of your life, no lie, no lie
Me and you together girl I'm celebratin' you tonight
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[Tyga:]
Uh, yeah I'm bloooown no cigarillo, rillo
Love when I'm Mellow, get on my level 101 Karats in my bezel
I'm ooooon, like soon as the ice cream truck at the ghetto
Little knucklehead always in trouble soon as I ask shawty her number, fashooooooo
Yeah I get it then I gone, then I hit it like bone bone
Now you fucking up my zone, my zone, my zone
Said she wait when daddy come home
Told me she ain't got nothing on
I'm talkin' no th-thong. thong thooooong
Yeah she throwin' that ass back
Hard as a bat, sit on my lap
Fucking with me, ain't nothing better than that
That's a fact. That's a fact?
Don't act hollywood cause I don't act
Bout my business but I don't slack
This my celebration rap, so

[Hook x2]

[Lil Wayne:]
I pour up for Pimp C, light up for Soulja Slim
Straight out the gutter, with the rest of the bowlin' pins
Money for days, bitches go both ways
On the road to riches, bitch I got road rage
Got the kush in the swisher, got the pussy, the liquor
Got a silencer on the gun, take it off like a stripper
Yeah, wake up, wake up, I'm goin' at your face, make up
These niggas need stitches cause they taking pay cuts
Man somebody tell them hoes it's a celebration
All my niggas got guns no registration
Now gone light that weed up, I'm Trukfit tee'd up
Hoes down, B's up

[Wiz Khalifa:]
Rollin' and chokin' and movin' slow motion, I'm floatin' I'm gone
Rollin' and chokin' and movin' slow motion, I'm floatin' I'm gone

[Hook]

Let's Reflect on 20.

 Let's reflect on 20.

My 20th Birthday.

It’s always nice to sit and reflect on the past year, for me this shows me whether or not I’ve grown spiritually, emotionally or physically.

I have to admit that I haven’t been going to church has much as too, reason being I’m in a different environment and  I haven’t found a spiritual home that I feel I belong too ever since I’ve moved to the Eastern Cape. However, I pray and worship God all the time and that for me keeps me going. My time with God is so secret and I feel that I’ve grown spiritually because without our Father God I wouldn’t have made it through the challenges in the past year.

20 was just a year of building a solid foundation that I have to stand on from the day I turned 20 and onwards, it was the beginning of new things, a real learning curve. I’m not perfect but I know I’ve done a well for someone in my shoes.

The accident that gave birth to my first nickname “Knecky”, this was the bitter part of my year, I thought I was either going to die or be paralyzed honestly. But by the grace of our Father God, it was just a soft tissue injury. This was a major wake-up call and I think it was God’s way of telling me that I’m starting to relax and take life for granted and something had to be done. Since that day, I now appreciate all my well-functioning body parts and organs. I’m healthy not because of my will but because our God is an awesome God and He lives inside of me. 

To my girls (Omphemetse, Dineo, Reabetswe, Neo, Elaine & Sincerity) who had my back and kept me going thank you very much, I cannot even find words to express how grateful I am for your support. I love you ladies very much. To Andiswa Madikane, I love you so much,  you are my everything, without you I doubt I would’ve survived my first year in university. You made me feel as though I belonged and I’m so blessed to have had someone to walk through this journey with.

To my Family, you guys kept me going at all times. Your unconditional love really means a lot to me. Your support has really kept me sane especially in instances where I thought I was going insane, thank you very much. I love you guys with all that I have in me.

I’m turning 21 in less than 48 hours and have I grown? Yes, I have grown. I’m now a blogger, made cheerleading captain of the University for 2013 in my first year, I’m now serving on the Black Management Forum (BMF) as a projects officer executive and lastly I’m also serving on the Law Student Council as Deputy Secretary. My brother reminded me that “With great power comes great responsibility”. As much as I’m proud to have these titles, I should never forget that my first priority is to get excellent grades and get that Law Degree in record time and always remember my favourite saying that “I am here to serve NOT to be served”.

How do I do it?  God, time management and asking for help all the time, allowing others to critize my dreams in order for me to grow in to a better lead that is responsible.

Yes, 21 I’m so ready for you and I love the woman that I’m growing into. I love you Khensani!

Sisterhood!

 

Sisterhood has never been this awesome...

 

 

 

Khensi-Jnr, Phemi, Rea & Dini...

 

 

Khensi, Dini & Phemi.

 

 

Night Out with the ladies.

I LOOOOVVVEEEE YOOOUUUUU LADIES!

Woo Woo Moments..

Phemi and Rea rocking Mma Hogany!

Sleepover vibes :)

 

Khensi.

 

Rea, Khensi, Phemi & Dini.

 

 

 

And the morning after...*good-byes*

KHENSANI

Khensani

My beautiful Xitsonga name that I love with all my mind, body and soul.

Khensani means GIVE THANKS!

My favourite church hymn is Hymn 5 titled “A hi nkhenseni Yehova” meaning let’s give thanks to the Lord, from the book TINSIMU TA VAKRISTE. This hymn gives my name an even greater meaning and purpose because I see my life as a blessing to those around me, I am a blessed soul and for all my blessings I should give thanks to the Lord at all times, good or bad.

Khensani commands me to give thanks at all times, it doesn’t even give me a choice to decide, I’m supposed to say thank you whether I like it or not. Id honestly be shaming my name if I didn’t say thank you.

Those that know me will tell you that for everything that I receive I always say thank you, Nakhensa. Oh but God is great! My late gogolicious (grandmother) taught me to use the words “please” and “thank you” and now that I’m almost 21, it all makes sense because she just wanted me to live up to my name and not take life and its pitfalls for granted. I know I’m making her proud. Her wisdom just rubbed off on me and Im so blessed to have had such an amazing woman as my grandmother.

I remember someone saying that  a person’s name says a lot about the person they will grow into, so we should try by all means to live up to the high standards that our names set for us. I am not sorry nor sad that I don’t have an English name, in fact I brag about my Xitsonga name because it’s the most beautiful name that my mother could’ve ever given me.

Looking back at everything I’ve been through in life, I feel as though I haAd to grow a lot quicker in order to understand things that were happening around me. Whenever id cry, that small voice in my head calls me to order and to me this is a reminder that God gives his most challenging tasks to his strongest soldiers.

I will give thanks to my Lord till infinity. His divine hand is upon me and heals me at all times.

Hymn 141- Ndzi wa wena

Verse 1

Ndzi wa wena Muhlayisi wa mina!

Ku nkhensiwa re rhandzu ra wena!

Ndzi wa wena Hosi tsa ku tlhangela, Ndzi wa wena, nzdi wa wena!                                                          

-Tinsimu ta vakriste by E.P.C.S.A page 168.

I love my beautiful name Khensani and Na khensa loko o hlaye blog ya mina!

 

 

Being Miss Independent.

Being Miss Independent.

 

I’ve always been one of those kids who liked the finer things in life and to my disappointment; I had to work for these things. Don’t get me wrong my mother bought me the things I needed and more but there were always limits to this. That’s why when I turned 16; I told myself id get a job so that I can buy myself whatever my heart desired.

I then got a job at Maxi’s, I worked as a waitress. I was only given lunch money (R15) and got paid on tips. But it wasn’t a biggie for me; I was young, fresh and good looking. I remember making R250 on a good day and just R100 on a bad day. I worked only during holidays. But I out grew that stage and waitressing was so draining, worked long hours and 6-days a week. I then stopped working.

After I matriculated in 2010, I decided to take a gap year, in this gap year I started working as an MTN Brand Ambassador, and the money was so great that for December alone I made R5000 for just working 4 days a week and 4 hours a day. That was like the quickest cash I’ve ever made in my young life.

Since, I started studying towards my Law degree in 2012, I then decided that I’d just work during June and December holidays only. In June I worked for a Brick making company and I worked as a brick sorter. This was just an exercise to actually see what other people had to go through in order to put bread on the table. On the other hand, I had a degree that was waiting for me. I learnt so much about myself and other people. I’m so humble now and respect every profession. I took so much for granted and after that one week of experience I told myself never again.

I remember talking to one of my good friends Thabiso Moyane early this year; he said something that’s worth mentioning. He said “… whilst I was working for my dad as a contractor there was this man who loved Cheese rolls, to a point that every time he’d buy these rolls and indulge in them for like a week or so because to him those cheese rolls were a luxury.” For most of us we can just go to the pick ‘n pay or spar and just buy these rolls and eat them whenever we want to because we are so privileged and fortunate to have parents like ours. Okay, you can stop feeling guilty about throwing away that loaf of bread last week, hahahahaha.

Anyway back to the topic at hand “being miss independent”. I was lucky enough to have my Job at Proximity Marketing & Events in December 2012, when I came back home from varsity. I still worked as an MTN Brand Ambassador but that year it was just on a different tip, we had to wear dresses, stalking and heels. We were just bringing sexy back and attracting MTN users on another level. We then worked at South African School Sports Event. This was even better because I met the Minister of Sports Mr Fekile Mbalula, SABC TV Crew, PSL coaches and Captains to just to name a few. Yeah I know I know my job is the best. Getting paid to smile is just the best thing in the world. But there’s more to it than that. The work that we put in when no one is looking is just intense but we do it anyway.

What I love about working besides that Bank notification at the end of the month is that I love meeting new people and working in different environments. I’ve meet amazing people over the years and I wouldn’t trade my work experience or moments for any amount of money in the world.

Thank God for His and for blessing me abundantly the talents that I’ve discovered over the years. Let your desired be a GPS to your out-most happiness. God is Love, I know.

 

 

 

Embracing my Agape Love that I’ve desired.

Embracing my Agape Love that I’ve desired.

Agape, A Greek word for unconditional love. Agape Love is the selfless kinder love we show to those we say we love wholeheartedly without sexual implications, especially love that is spiritual in its nature.

The love of God for man and for man for God.

 “Love bears all things,

Believes all things,

Hopes all things,

Endures all things,

Love never fails” – 1 Corinthians 13:7.

If the human mind fails to acknowledge Gods unconditional love then how do i love everything and everyone God has created? Agape love should be reflected in the different relationship we build with those around us without expecting anything in return because after all “love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself. Love possesses not nor would it be possessed; for love is sufficient unto love’ –Almitra.

I found some of that Agape love and believe me, it’s the best feeling in the world. I desired and still desire that selfless kinder love!My desires have always been my GPS to the special Somebodies in my life, they bring the out-most happiness to my life. My desiderata which is my ultimate total bliss! My special place.

“With age comes a lot of wisdom”, only at 21 years, I understand the whole ideology of Valentine’s Day. For me today isn’t about proving your love to those around you but for me today is about celebrating love with those close to your heart.

Celebrate LOVE!

 

Feel the beat at Africa's feet!

Feel the beat at Africa's feet!

 

 

It all started with Liberia being unable to host the AFCON 2013 tournament... and since we had the facilities, South Africa was chosen to be a host nation for the tournament. This raised brows whether or not we’d host without playing. But as always we managed to qualify for AFCON 2013 because we were the host nation.

So, I chose to be full-time Bafana supporter and purchased tickets for the opening match which was played at the National Stadium on the 19^th January. What really broke my heart was the fact that most South-Africans were so negative and anticipated bafana bafana to fail. Most didn’t even have faith that we could win the opening match or make it past the group stages.

But, as a soccer freak, it didn’t bother me because I believed in the dream team and I also believed in our national coach Gordon Igesund’s vision. However, it wasn’t easy because we failed to win one of the warm-up matches against Niger and Tunisia

I was excited about the opening which was South-Africa v Cape Verde, I remember looking for my soccer jersey and sweater but the weather was everyone’s biggest worry because the weather man had predicted it would rain the whole weekend with an 80% chance. However, this didn’t for one second kills the excitement that build-up to the actual event. Seeing everyone wearing their Bafana T-shirts, waving their flags and blowing the VUVUZELA was phenomenal. The emotions that we evoked were simply over-whelming.

Getting to the National stadium the atmosphere of togetherness amongst other South-Africans and other African country’s was amazing, there’s wasn’t for a moment a sense of division. Doing the Mexican wave, singing Shosholoza and sharing opinions about the game at hand were just priceless.  Everyone was so united and I have to say it felt really good and will go down as one of the most memorable moments of 2013 in my books.

But, I wasn’t alone; I have to give props to Omphemetse and Katlego for being the coolest soccer freaks. The way they danced whilst blowing the vuvuzela shared a sense of togetherness and thinking about it now hmmmmmmmm, it was funny. I guess it’s one of those moments when you think about them, you just instantly ask yourself “what the hell was I doing??” Whilst that smile creeps in. Thank you guys for sharing the experience with me and most importantly taking very good care of me, really appreciate it.

The desired beauty of the African flavour by other continents was what we as Africans were supposed to experience out of this great AFCON’13 tournament. And if you are African and didn’t experience the beat at your feet then sorry for you, I guess you haven’t lived! I felt the beat at feet and I wouldn’t trade the awesome memory for anything!  



 

 

And lastly, Congratulations to Nigeria for being crowned the Kings of African football at this years AFCON. To Burikino Faso, well-done on coming second, you guys showed determination, dedication and passion!